Building Rome The first 11 bricks! I made the attempts on my life in 1997 and 1998 . I did not want to live anymore and I remember thinking ‘I wish someone would just come and shoot me so I can go.' The lower back injury was causing havoc when sitting, and proving to be unbearable at times. Being on prescription drugs 24/7 was daunting and I felt conflicted taking them. The flip side to this was that I was also ‘dancing with the devil’ and partying hard with an unlawful