There had been no peaceful sleeping for days and I was struggling. I felt out of control, and cried. Today would be like yesterday and the day before that and the day before that. My cheeks were hurting, and when they hurt my mind knows that I am anxious. For the tenth night I had tossed and turned. I had a 10am appointment with Dr Cartwright and I just wanted her to take my pain away. The night before, I laid out the clothes I was wearing today so I would not have to fight a